Overwhelmed/Underwhelmed

Yeah. That title. That's what December usually feels like to me. I bet I'm preaching to the choir, right??? Holidays, family, end-of-year work, commitments, the weather (are ALL of the Ice Princesses mad here in Indiana??? It's been SO cold!), etc. can have your mind and your emotions, even your body, on this roller coaster of highs and lows. I feel like 2017 was this series of snow mountains that I had to climb up and slide down. So, here I am on this last icy mountain. It's the last sled ride down! I've already shoved 6 freakin' Ice Princesses off my back already! Here I go!!! And when I get to the bottom, I'm out of breath and I hear 2018 screaming "No resting! Get up! Grab your sled! I don't care if you want a hot cocoa and a nap! Oh, and don't forget to lug all of the crap with you that you didn't get finished back there!" It's at this point that I start looking for a mental burn barrel for all of the crazy things that are going on in my head.....

Then...today, I think around 11am.....I calmed down.

I paused. It started to feel like there is now this big gap between 2017 and 2018. Because really, 2018 isn't screaming at me or pushing me ahead. I am. It's been a really full year. I've been figuring out where I fit in the business world. I've been learning so much more this year from my daughters. You always learn from your kids, but when the scale tips farther on their side of teaching, let me tell you, it's an emotional experience. I've been learning a lot about friendships and relationships. I'm learning to be more aware of how some people come so intensely into your life, when you're least expecting it, and then they fade away. Sometimes we fight that and it taints the reason\lesson\purpose that the Universe brought them to us in the first place. So, yeah, I've been having some inner and outer battles about a lot of things this year. Even having said all of that, I've barely mentioned the lessons of 2017 for me here! I think my most uttered phrase this year has been "Please, Universe! I don't want to learn any more hard lessons this year!" Maybe that's why I've been mentally pushing for the new year, but we all know that the new year is just going to bring different lessons.

So, I'm pausing. I'm making the mental notes that help me see the silver lining in the hard lessons. I can only promise myself to not repeat the same lessons. I'm using my catch phrase and "pulling up my boot straps". I'm walking slowly over to 2018. And this time, I'm strapping on snow cleats, I've got Anti-Ice Princess spray, and I've upgraded my sled. I think I'll go make that hot cocoa now and take a nap.